And Then...

And then there was love,
An emotion that pervaded my soul
My very existence.
Groping in the darkness,
Looking for a way
Lost!
A feeling I had given up on,
One I didn't think I could feel again.
And then it resurfaced again,
For someone so unlikely,
I smile to myself.
Someone who knows not how I feel,
A friend, an acquaintance.
Who seeps into the corners of my very soul,
So slowly and surely.
And yet unintentionally...
Doesn't do a thing
And still am lost!
And this love is my cross to bear
And so I suffer in silence.
A suffering so beautiful,
It elates me.
Something so concrete
Almost tangible
And yet Elusive!!!

A Road Less Traveled

An empty void,
A deserted road.
A house in shambles,
Not a soul around...
And that is what my heart is...
Soulless,
Friendless...
I smile and am merry
And then lie awake at night staring at nothingness,
Wondering about the void that is in me.
A void am okay with
That I do not feel the need to fill.
Should I feel sad?
Should I cry?
Or should I be exhilarated
With this new-found independence?
An independence that stops me from being a leech,
A parasite!
And that deserted road, my mind, my heart
Shall have a sole traveler still.
Someone who shall enjoy the journey
And map the road,
A road less traveled into his travel route.
I shall wait and hope for him to revisit
And maybe mark a spot
And lay a foundation...
A foundation he would want to call home one day,
One day,
And then forever...
I hold out for that lone traveler
Who likes the road less traveled,
Unknown territory.
A journey for a few brave men,
For a few good men,
Or better still
That one good brave man...
My lone traveler.
And I think this as I lie there
Staring at the nothingness,
Absolute void,
Within
And without...

Of Words and Gestures...

Sometimes all you need is a kind,considerate word.
Sometimes even that is not enough.
Sometimes they say the thought is all that matters,and yet is isn't is it???
You wanted a thought, you got a word.
You needed a word, you got a gesture...
A gesture...
A signal to the hope that is possible.
A hope long lost
Of goodness,of Humanity.
You lay there at the street corner,
Bleeding,faithless and helpless.
You gave up and lost hope
Thinking it was over and
You were done for.
Death seemed a looming possibility,
Not so far away.
You closed your eyes letting it sink in.
Said a little prayer,
A prayer without hope.
A prayer to a God who had stopped answering long back
A God who had just become an idol on your rack.
And yet you closed your eyes
In silent prayer to a dubious God.
And suddenly you feel a hand on you your shoulder as u lay,
And there she stood looking down at you,
A worried frown,
Some flying tendrils of hair out of her hood.
She took out her tiny white handkerchief,
(Whoever uses those these days???!!!)
And wiped your bloody brow.
You lay there in disbelief
Yet helpless like a baby, you let her help you!
Her rosary beads...
She looked down at you with worried eyes,
And your pain is numb...
Your agony passes
As a tiny smile escapes you.
You smile at the irony
Your lack of faith,
Your irreverence...
And here she was helping you
A Child of God
Who had pledged her life to Him...
And still you lay there,
Disbelieving Ingrate!
You let the smile stay,
She calls out to you...
You close your eyes.
A silent apology,
A return of faith,
A thankful prayer...
And then you peacefully embrace Him...
.... Your Father!

This Life...

Life is an experience
A culmination of experiences.
It never did matter what was good or bad,
All that mattered and still does is that
The lessons are yours to learn
And the mistakes are yours to make.
The sorrows are yours to shed tears on
And the joys are yours to rejoice and celebrate.
One complains and grumbles,
Feels sorry for oneself.
There are regrets,regrets one detests oneself for.
Wishes unfulfilled,
Insatiability at its prime...
Oh the human condition!
The caprice of it all.
Oh whim!Oh fancy!
Ain't you a crime?
A human failing!
Yet an experience in itself.
An experience of a lifetime.
Life is eternal,
It goes on forever,
Only entities change,
And the experience continues.
Value and cherish the experience
While it is still yours to call.
It is a gift of the universe...
This LIFE!!!